7 Juni 2006

every day..
still the same.. dont know if what i did is that huge..
should he always use those words..? am i really a ****** ..?
i felt so horrible.. never hope that everything would turn out this way..
dont know what i should do.. or what i shouldn't do..
but everything always turn out the same..

maybe i am just a pathetic ******* ..
i never wish to be treated that way..
not even in my nightmare.. but the fact is, he always treated me that way..
i dont know why.. and every day.. every day is even worse..

God, help me please...